12:27 am - ramblings
the world works in strange ways. there will be times when the bumps and bruises you’ve earned will give you a sense of entitlement or power that you have the knowledge on how everything around you will work and function. how the cause and effect will result. you foreshadow moments and thus by doing so expectations go up a notch, while completely being unaware of it all. you all of a sudden have this misplaced strength in you that somehow you have figured out how to live your life and how to avoid getting your emotions and identity thrown on your face. somehow in your mind you think you’ve figured how the leaves fall, not by precise calculation but by simple optimism that somehow your luck has changed for the better. that maybe, just maybe this is a start of something new and true. is it a change of heart in the nature of the way things don’t go your way? or is it by complete happenstance that you somehow nudged your way through happiness? sometimes we have a tendency to beat ourselves up with questions we know we don’t have answers for, instead of simply focusing on the answers we already have that we don’t have questions for. sadness lingers and happiness is instantaneous. the question is not always why, but rather why not?
