2:14 am - ramblings
music never fails me. never. i can always count on it. it’s like a friend i can always count on who knows just what to say and what to do regardless of how i feel. sometimes my lows just get low and i don’t like running to people to find comfort and to find reassurance. i don’t like fishing for compliments, i don’t need a pity pat on the back. i just need someone who would listen without judgement and that’s what music does for me. it’s an escape; another world where i can be completely me. where i see myself in the best possible sense. there’s so many let downs and failures and sadness that has been prevalent throughout my life that when i can’t find strength i turn to music because it’s the only thing that stops everything from spinning. it calms me and keeps me grounded and reminds me of who i am, but most importantly it gives me a sense of comfort and simplicity in myself. maybe someday i’ll be able to put into words just what it feels like to listen to a song that fits perfectly into that present moment, it’s bliss. like driving with the windows down all by yourself on a sunny afternoon with the sun on your face and that one song comes in perfectly in harmony with the moment and you can’t help but smile because life is strange. it’s really all about small simple honest moments in life that leaves an indelible impression in us.
music makes every damn thing thats ever made me sad and happy okay. if that makes any sense. music is a culmination of every sad and happy moment i’ve ever lived piled into one. music allows me to be nostalgic about the past, live in the present and look forward to the future all at the same time. we all live and die with each song in some way shape or form and that’s beautiful. music gets me through.
